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[faeshim]

you're mine. that's what i mean.

but i want you to be happy. i want you to like me. i do. so it's difficult sometimes.

[privatechat]

[ Lennon's quiet for a while, not answering the messages right away. He keeps starting to and then setting the phone aside not even sure what to say. ]

You're... so annoying sometimes.

[ But... he's Daeshim's and Daeshim's is his... sort of... ]

What if sometimes I want you to join me without my asking and sometimes I don't?

[faeshim]

[it's a good question, and the fae hums as he reads the words.]

a signal.

we need a signal. so that i'll know the difference.

[privatechat]

What kind of signal would work for you?

[faeshim]

[another difficult question. what would be enough for daeshim to not just...ignore.

the answer seems obvious, but it's not. not for a fae, anyway.]

if you want me to join you, you leave the door open.

if not, close it.

[privatechat]

I like that. Okay.

[faeshim]

ok.

whose turn is it?

[privatechat]

[ He has no idea. ]

Yours.

[faeshim]

ok

[because he really does have a question.]

why did you let bae drink from you?

[privatechat]

[ Oh.

Have a long wait again. ]

Because... you care about Baein.

[faeshim]

[he can be patient when he wants to be. like now. and while the answer doesn't surprise him, it still confuses him.]

you were afraid. i felt it.

and i know it hurts.

but you did it anyway, because i care about bae?

[privatechat]

If he was hungry or he couldn't control himself because he wouldn't eat then he would be upset... you would also worry and I didn't want you to worry or be sad.

I was scared and it did hurt but you were there and I trusted you.

[faeshim]

i care about you too

i worry about you too

you don't have to sacrifice yourself for him or for me. i will find a way to take care of you all.

[privatechat]

I'm not as scared now, Daeshim. I can do this anytime he needs. I... didn't know how it was going to happen and... that's what scared me more than anything. I felt like I didn't have any control because I didn't know... But I know now how it feels and works.

You don't have to take care of everything or me. I've always taken care of myself. It's okay.

[faeshim]

knowing doesn't stop you from bleeding.

that was before. you're mine now.

[privatechat]

I don't even have a mark, Daeshim.

[faeshim]

only because bae is very gentle. any other vampire and who knows.

[privatechat]

Well, I'm feeding him not any other vampire. Don't try to control me, Daeshim.

[faeshim]

[lennon misunderstands him. the fae was just worried, trying to say that he cares about him-

it can't be helped.]

[privatechat]

[ At first, Lennon doesn't think too much about the silence... but then it goes on a little too long. ]

Daeshim... don't stop talking to me. You didn't even say the game was over.

[faeshim]

[it goes on for longer. daeshim doesn't like conflict. sometimes, this is how he deals with it. he runs away, and this time leaves his device behind.

but eventually:]

it's your turn.

[privatechat]

What did I do wrong to upset you?

[faeshim]

[he's not sure he wants to answer that. but rules are rules, and while he probably could find a loophole in them, maybe it wouldn't be a good idea.]

my intentions were not what you think. you assumed the worst.

[privatechat]

[ Lennon wonders if they shouldn't finish this up in person but there's something nice about being able to take the time to formulate responses. ]

Then explain, Dae. Because it felt a lot like you were trying to make a decision for me again.

[faeshim]

[unseelie. rising.]

again?

you do as you wish all the time.

you play games when you want.

you give your blood to who you want.

sell your body to who you want too.

where is my control that annoys you so?