[ Lennon exhales softly and he does figure the other is right. He sighs and stares at his phone, feeling frustrated and lost and wishing he'd never brought it up at all. ]
[daeshim doesn't know what to tell him. it was lennon who made the deal in the first place. now, the fae would be lying if he said that it hadn't made him happy, but fortunately, no one's asking him that. what he wants is at odds with what's being asked of him, and lennon can't think of anything to offer either.
but he clearly wants out of the deal, and daeshim has to make that happen no matter what. he doesn't want any of them to be unhappy, not lennon or hunter or bae. so if someone must be, it must be him.]
[ Lennon swallows heavily and he quickly goes through all the bargains he can think of. ]
I just... I only asked you because I'm trying to make everyone happy and now I'm making you unhappy.
[ Lennon chews on his bottom lip a bit too roughly with his fangs but he doesn't care and it's helping keep his mind clear enough to make a decision. There's a lot of their bargains that are far too important to him to adjust in any way. ]
The one where I spend Fridays with you... What if Saturdays are also yours?
[ It's not just another day but it's his most lucrative day at work that he's offering. ]
if you keep it up, i will have you every day of the week. [and then what good will any of this do?] besides, you make your most money on that day. you cannot.
[ Lennon's too stubborn. He glares at the phone a bit angry with himself for getting them into this situation. He starts to offer his art room but he stops, knowing that wouldn't go over well most likely. ]
There has to be something.
[ he chews on his bottom lip all the more. ]
What if when I'm topping, I can only come inside of you but not inside anyone else?
[hmm. well he does enjoy the pine apple too. so he goes for bread, adding a thin layer of butter, some fruit, and even some hot chocolate, all placed on a tray. lennon didn't ask for it, it's just automatic at this point.]
[ Lennon is curled up under the blanket with the device in hand when Daeshim comes in but he tosses it aside the moment he sees him. He knows his lip probably looks a bit awful but he'd checked it to make sure it wasn't bleeding before asking Daeshim to come to bed. He smells the hot chocolate before he sees it and sits up slowly, his tail flicking when it gets free from the covers. ]
[daeshim pauses, blinking once before he answers.]
A small one. To make sure it was not too hot!
[his slice of bread is so thick that he has to pick it up with both hands. he takes a bite and the whole thing melts like butter on his tongue - as to be expected of jasper's baking.]
[ Lennon smiles and takes a sip himself, watching the other take the bite of his bread. He then focuses on his hot chocolate, making a soft noise of appreciation. ]
[it's all he can say, his mouth too full with the second bite. he doesn't want to think about it anymore. it still hurts, feeling like he was chosen and then unchosen, special and then not. but it's something that he will deal with and overcome on his own. by the time he swallows again, he's noticed something to change the subject with.]
What happened to your lips?
[daeshim puts his bread down, scooting onto his knees for a better loook at them.]
[he inspects them closely, frowning at the tiny pinpricks and chewed raw places along lennon's mouth.]
Your teeth are so sharp. You must be more careful.
[he should clean them. daeshim moves off the bed so that he can get a wet washcloth from the bathroom. by the time he returns and starts dabbing the soft cloth against the small wounds, he still hasn't commented on most of what the other said. and he knows it's been noticed.]
[ Lennon wants to protest when the other gets up. He'd taken care of them, he'd had to make sure there wasn't any blood. He doesn't protest, allowing Daeshim to take care of him instead, waiting for his response. He knows Daeshim would rather not talk about any of it probably but Lennon didn't want to bury his feelings and pretend he was okay. ]
I should have realized I was going to upset you. I should have just asked you for help.
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[ Thus far he's been edgy about even three! ]
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you do no want our children born from a bargain. three or five or nine, they should come from love.
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What do you want then? What can I give you?
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but he clearly wants out of the deal, and daeshim has to make that happen no matter what. he doesn't want any of them to be unhappy, not lennon or hunter or bae. so if someone must be, it must be him.]
it must be something of equal value.
an amendment to another of our bargains.
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I just... I only asked you because I'm trying to make everyone happy and now I'm making you unhappy.
[ Lennon chews on his bottom lip a bit too roughly with his fangs but he doesn't care and it's helping keep his mind clear enough to make a decision. There's a lot of their bargains that are far too important to him to adjust in any way. ]
The one where I spend Fridays with you... What if Saturdays are also yours?
[ It's not just another day but it's his most lucrative day at work that he's offering. ]
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what if you could never top me again?
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Wouldn't you be disappointed with that? And... if I can't fuck you then how can we have our baby?
[ Because it still counts with a girl's body to him. ]
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[he could change it to 'only in this body', but he's not sure that would make it any more agreeable. he sighs.]
just let me lose. it is the best way.
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There has to be something.
[ he chews on his bottom lip all the more. ]
What if when I'm topping, I can only come inside of you but not inside anyone else?
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we have a deal, you and i.
[and an end to it.]
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Can you come to bed?
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How did you know I wanted hot chocolate too?
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[he places the tray on the bed, carefully handing lennon the cup first before he crawls in on his side.]
I used the last of the mint. I will grow and harvest more tomorrow.
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[ Lennon asks and maybe he's feeling a little unsteady after their conversation. But he nods at the mention of Dae growing more mint. ]
I'm sorry... about everything.
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A small one. To make sure it was not too hot!
[his slice of bread is so thick that he has to pick it up with both hands. he takes a bite and the whole thing melts like butter on his tongue - as to be expected of jasper's baking.]
It's done now. That's all that matters.
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I won't do something like that again.
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[it's all he can say, his mouth too full with the second bite. he doesn't want to think about it anymore. it still hurts, feeling like he was chosen and then unchosen, special and then not. but it's something that he will deal with and overcome on his own. by the time he swallows again, he's noticed something to change the subject with.]
What happened to your lips?
[daeshim puts his bread down, scooting onto his knees for a better loook at them.]
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I was anxious. So I was biting them.
[ Lennon says quietly. ]
I just wanted to make everyone happy and not... unsatisfied and disappointed.
[ The words spill out because Lennon's having a hard time letting go of the fact he'd messed up like this. ]
But you're the most important and I...messed up and so I was anxious.
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Your teeth are so sharp. You must be more careful.
[he should clean them. daeshim moves off the bed so that he can get a wet washcloth from the bathroom. by the time he returns and starts dabbing the soft cloth against the small wounds, he still hasn't commented on most of what the other said. and he knows it's been noticed.]
You...cannot make everyone happy. Sometimes.
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I should have realized I was going to upset you. I should have just asked you for help.
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