[releasing him from the bargain doesn't mean that he has to do anything, only that he's free to do it. daeshim doesn't dare think that things will remain the same. he lifts his hand up into lennon's hair.]
Mm. Because that one is my deal. No one else can undo it.
[he smiles a little. it was true even when the human resisted it.]
I don't have to top anyone else. It can just be you, I want it to just be you. You can help me satisfy Hunter. I don't need the bargain to be able to do this.
[ Lennon says softly, He hadn't really wanted to be released from the bargain at least not like this...not at the expense of Daeshim... he'd just been trying to make everyone happy. ]
I wouldn't undo it if I could but I will not let you out of any of our other bargains.
[daeshim frowns at that. it's another thing that he doesn't want to think about. he hasn't seemed unhappy to him, but he knows that others are closer to him than he is.]
I also do not need them. I would choose to abide by the terms just the same.
[there's a point here, there's a point here....and it zooms right over daeshim's head.]
[ Lennon nuzzles the other's jaw and he exhales and he's pretty sure he can hear Baein's voice in his head saying not to assume his feelings but it's in reference to Hunter. He very nearly bites his lip again but instead he nips at Daeshim's jaw to quell the urge and still manage the nervous tic. ]
Mm... He... he's not a top, not really... and I know he wants more than I've been able to give him? I've used toys on him but it's not the same... and he'll act like it's fine but it's not. So if you'd... you want him, don't you?
[ Lennon nibbles some more at Daeshim's jaw and maybe he needs a chew toy for when he's anxious. ]
Humans don't have bargains. We trust our commitments.
[a "top". he knows what the term means, and that it doesn't entirely apply to him, but only because nothing really applies to him completely. bodies and acts don't do much for him without feelings, but those feelings open him up to everything.
daeshim is just now realizing that he might be weird.
but even between them, it's not common for lennon to take that role. that's all he really knows.]
Of course I want him. [he loves hunter, but more importantly he likes him. daeshim feels comfortable with him. hunter has a knack for accepting, even if he surely doesn't always understand.] But people are more than their body parts and what they can do with them. I will go to him more, but there will be times when he wants you.
[the fae draws a sudden breath, and blinks a few times. the wheels are clearly rolling.
(he'll come back to the "commitments" thing. he's still chewing that info over.]
[ Lennon hesitates at the question and then he shakes his head. ]
Not really, no. I don't dislike it but I usually don't prefer it. Sometimes I'm in the mood for it, though. Sometimes I just enjoy the way I can make someone feel.
[ He generally has always tried to mold himself to please others though, to give them what they wanted. It's not a stretch to say he's a switch but he definitely has always leaned toward bottom if left to his own instincts completely without interference. ]
M..maybe... but maybe he'll feel more satisfied with what I can give him if he's getting... more.
[he doesn't bother asking if hunter told him that he was unsatisfied or if lennon just fears that he is. he doesn't think hunter would say such a thing, and he knows how lennon thinks of himself sometimes. that he's somehow never enough.]
There is a loophole in every deal.
[incorporating them. finding them. this is also a fae thing. daeshim pets lennon's hair before planting a kiss against his head.]
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[releasing him from the bargain doesn't mean that he has to do anything, only that he's free to do it. daeshim doesn't dare think that things will remain the same. he lifts his hand up into lennon's hair.]
Mm. Because that one is my deal. No one else can undo it.
[he smiles a little. it was true even when the human resisted it.]
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[ Lennon says softly, He hadn't really wanted to be released from the bargain at least not like this...not at the expense of Daeshim... he'd just been trying to make everyone happy. ]
I wouldn't undo it if I could but I will not let you out of any of our other bargains.
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[daeshim frowns at that. it's another thing that he doesn't want to think about. he hasn't seemed unhappy to him, but he knows that others are closer to him than he is.]
I also do not need them. I would choose to abide by the terms just the same.
[there's a point here, there's a point here....and it zooms right over daeshim's head.]
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Mm... He... he's not a top, not really... and I know he wants more than I've been able to give him? I've used toys on him but it's not the same... and he'll act like it's fine but it's not. So if you'd... you want him, don't you?
[ Lennon nibbles some more at Daeshim's jaw and maybe he needs a chew toy for when he's anxious. ]
Humans don't have bargains. We trust our commitments.
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[a "top". he knows what the term means, and that it doesn't entirely apply to him, but only because nothing really applies to him completely. bodies and acts don't do much for him without feelings, but those feelings open him up to everything.
daeshim is just now realizing that he might be weird.
but even between them, it's not common for lennon to take that role. that's all he really knows.]
Of course I want him. [he loves hunter, but more importantly he likes him. daeshim feels comfortable with him. hunter has a knack for accepting, even if he surely doesn't always understand.] But people are more than their body parts and what they can do with them. I will go to him more, but there will be times when he wants you.
[the fae draws a sudden breath, and blinks a few times. the wheels are clearly rolling.
(he'll come back to the "commitments" thing. he's still chewing that info over.]
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Not really, no. I don't dislike it but I usually don't prefer it. Sometimes I'm in the mood for it, though. Sometimes I just enjoy the way I can make someone feel.
[ He generally has always tried to mold himself to please others though, to give them what they wanted. It's not a stretch to say he's a switch but he definitely has always leaned toward bottom if left to his own instincts completely without interference. ]
M..maybe... but maybe he'll feel more satisfied with what I can give him if he's getting... more.
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There is a loophole in every deal.
[incorporating them. finding them. this is also a fae thing. daeshim pets lennon's hair before planting a kiss against his head.]
Do not worry. I know how to fix this now.