[ lennon's hand has something tight in baein's chest unfurl, and he takes another step.
only to tumble, not unlike a ragdoll, when daeshim tugs at him, and the prince manages a yelp before he comes face to face, almost nose to nose with lennon. blinking back a few tears as he tries to focus on the features on the other side of the blur, baein goes a pale pink, eyes a little wide when he finds himself frozen.
daeshim unfreezes him though, and baein can only stutter his reply, even if he doesn't look away from lennon. his voice is a little strangled with emotion and he swallows again. ]
N-no... no... I don't.
[ daeshim is warm against him where he's smooshed against him, and he can feel the way lennon's body gives off heat too. and the vampire can't help the way he just sags a little. ]
Do you want me to...? After I... after I said those things.
[ Baein... being that close to his lips has Lennon's eyes dropping from his eyes along the line of the other's cute nose to the lips below. He'd never really kissed Baein -- just that stolen one when they were both under the influence of something else but kissing Baein had been something he'd wanted for a long time. It's... so hard to resist when he's that close.
He swallows a little as he looks back up at Baein's eyes, takes in his answer to Daeshim, his question. He decides to answer for Daeshim.
The small distance between them is closed as Lennon crushes their lips together maybe a little too hard at first and he reigns it in to kiss Baein softly, the way he deserves. But almost as soon as he'd done it the worry that Baein doesn't want him to kiss him takes hold and he pulls back, swallowing.
He bites his tongue to keep from saying sorry -- at least until... he sees the other's reaction. ]
[it brings back memories, being crushed between two lovers this way. more than daeshim expected. but those are feelings to be dealt with at another time, quietly and alone, the same way that he made peace with his happiness here and the way he still mourns everything that he left behind in the ruinwood.]
Does swimming still seem like a good date idea?
[he loops his arms around bae's waist. it's something they can do at night. they don't have to worry about something being open or closed. it doesn't cost anything. (which is good, because he still hasn't told lennon that he spent all of his allowance on popcorn.) oh, and they don't have to wear clothes for it either.
[ baein can't hold back the quiet whimper that slips out when lennon kisses him, something he was thinking about but didn't hope would happen because while they're all here, everything is still sort of raw and weird and baein's vision is still a little blurry with tears though he's trying to stave them off.
when lennon pulls back, baein unconsciously follows to kiss him again, though he breaks it a second time when he realizes what he's doing, eyes darting over lennon's face for any sign of not wanting to.
daeshim's voice is what startles him back to reality and at first the vampire doesn't register the meaning of the words. ]
[ Something eases when Baein follows and presses another kiss to his lips. It's not... something Lennon did and Baein just accepted, Baein kissed him too. Chose to kiss him. He doesn't want it to stop. His eyes meeting the other's and he smiles, his tongue brushing over his lips where he can still taste Baein on them.
He really...wants to kiss him again but there's other things to attend to. He swallows and leans his head on Daeshim as he watches Baein. ]
[ baein looks between them, still smooshed against them both and not sure he wants to move at all. the idea of going swimming has the little warmth in his body rise to his cheeks, but he nods then. ]
[ Lennon can't help it, he reaches out and strokes Baein's cheek. He bites his lip. ]
We'll make sure you get fed beforehand too.
[ Because he thinks... it would be nicer with Baein having some warmth for himself. His hand caresses a little, thumb brushing over Baein's bottom lip and he swallows before dropping his hand, the tips of his ears a tell-tale pink. ]
[swimming does come naturally to him. can he even drown? perhaps if a mer dragged him to the bottom...
the fae blinks suddenly, looks back at lennon, following the line of his arm to where his fingers stroke bae's cheek. his lips curve down at the corners.]
[ lennon's touch is so gentle, and a shiver runs down baein's spine before his eyes land on daeshim. he's not sure who the fae is talking to, but... the way he is pouting clenches at baein's heart, and he feels guilty all over again for making dae feel like that. ]
Notice you? Daeshim... how could I not?
[ baein shifts a little so he can reach more for daeshim's hand instead, swallowing quietly. this entire situation is so strange to him, but lennon kissed him, and daeshim pulled him in and— ]
Can I kiss you?
[ the vampire hitches his non!breath after he's blurted that, but he gives daeshim a little smile and reaches up with his free hand to rub the almost dried tears from his cheeks. ]
[ Lennon tilts his head to look at Daeshim when he says that, swallowing a little and he bites his lip again but he lets Baein respond as he tightens his arm around Daeshim's middle holding him close.
As the other asks to kiss Daeshim, Lennon lowers his head to press a soft kiss to Daeshim's neck, right over the flower there, letting his tongue flick out against it as he nuzzles him after.
He knows that Daeshim will want to kiss Baein but he'll make sure Daeshim knows that Lennon notices him too. ]
[not only is he short, but lennon is quite beautiful. deashim things it would be very easy to not notice him, all things considered. and that's what scares him.
he's childish. but also like a child, he's easily soothed most of the time. lennon's nuzzle gets him halfway there, making him tilt his head to expose a little more of that spot. and baein's question takes care of the rest.]
Yes. You don't have to ask ever again. You can kiss me whenever you want.
[that's also a little scary, the thought that he might look for one every day and never receive it. but it's not up to just him. dae'll be sure to initiate his share as well.]
[ baein honestly feels like he's intruding, that he shouldn't be here. but they're holding onto him and that in itself feels a little like an anchor keeping him from floating away. ]
It just... I just wanted to make sure.
[ it's quiet, subdued, but daeshim's words are like a promise, and baein glances at lennon, afraid to see if there'll be any kind of objection from his side. but if daeshim wants it, then... baein leans in to give the fae a gentle kiss. it's not the first time he's kissed him, obviously, but it feels a little different like this, as if it is the first time. ]
[until the day comes that the contract is broken, a day that daeshim can't imagine. the fae waits, a little more patient now, eyes closing right before bae's lips touch his. he remembers the flowers that bloomed on his birthday - they bloom again now in a perfect outline around the three of them. it's soft and gentle, and then-
lennon should maybe warn the new boyfriends that daeshim can be a bit...unpredictable at times. because maybe then bae would be prepared for the way that daeshim all but crawls into his lap for a more eager kiss.]
[ it's all baein gets out before the kiss steals the rest of any spoken word he might utter. and baein sighs into the kiss, though he muffles a confused noise into it the moment he suddenly has a lapful of fae climbing on him, and it's all baein can do to adjust to the new position. honestly, he should be surprised, but he settles pretty fast and and hesitantly cups the fae's cheeks with his hands as he kisses him back.
the vampire is going to tip over if daeshim pushes any further, if there's nothing to keep baein upright after all. ]
[there will be times when the fae tips him right over with his sudden affection. daeshim could tumble off the bed with him right now and keep on kissing. but he catches himself before that can happen, and bae with him. he doesn't want him to get hurt.
his face underneath bae's fingertips grows even warmer. he scoots back again once the kiss breaks, though there's never much distance between them when dae takes his hands and draws him back, resuming his place as the cream in this cookie.]
The next time we go shopping for slutty clothes, you should pick out something you want to see me in.
[do the others know that that was a thing that actually happened? no, they probably don't.]
[ Lennon would have reached out to steady Baein had it been needed but Daeshim manages to control himself at least a little bit. He'd been quiet while they kissed, staying close but not interfering because they deserved to have a moment between them he thinks.
He relaxes as Daeshim settles back again, raising a brow at the other's comment to Baein. ]
[ when the kiss breaks baein can only blink a few short confused moments at dae when he mentions their little excursion, and suddenly he feels his cheeks heat up (though they don't go very red at all), and his eyes widen a little. the vampire opens and closes his mouth a couple of times as lennon chimes in and questions it and baein kind of both wants to sink into the floor and also feels a little... off about it. ]
That's— I thought...
[ his cat ears lays back against his skull without his consent as the prince pulls back slightly, fiddling with his fingers. ]
I can do that. But—
[ he thought it was kind of their little secret thing. or something. maybe he just assumed that daeshim didn't want to tell anyone (of course he did, he never asked, after all), and technically he'd feel bad for keeping secrets like that anyway, it wouldn't be right. (he has no right) and now it feels suddenly more charged. ]
[ baein forces a small smile, unsure about his own emotions in the middle of all this, because it feels so sudden. he's still trying to speak around a lump in his throat, the thought of his home still dancing along the edges of his mind like a taunting specter, jumbling around his emotions already, and he still feels a little raw and exposed. it's not a spectacular feeling, but then again, baein hasn't felt spectacular in a while now. ]
It's all right. I did not say it was a secret. I... I should have asked, if it was.
[ maybe he wanted something that was only his with daeshim, but the prince tries to remind himself that it would be greedy to want that here. watching lennon curled around daeshim like that, finally smiling on a laugh, it at least helps assuage baein's guilt a little bit. ]
No. I should have asked if you wanted a secret with me.
[he didn't think, he just assumed that baein wouldn't want something like that with him - something that was just theirs. a part of him also feels like he has no right to it, because there is a jasper and a daeshim for him, wolfy knotty creature that he is. he knows that baein must miss them, and that he would probably return to them if he could.
but he's here instead, and he's very loved. and daeshim's greed is making it impossible for him to keep it from him. he will find something that's just theirs too, create it if he has to. it would be good for all of them to have that.]
[ Having special things between two people is good, it's needed especially when things are as complicated as they are in this house. Lennon is quiet still, just nuzzling Daeshim and looking at Baein periodically. ]
[ baein bites back a petty emotion (why do hey even need a secret for? it's not like baein needs one. he's always been open and perfectly fine with that, and this shouldn't be any different? just because it's daeshim. right? ...right?) before he can voice it, immediately inhales on it and feels bad because he hasn't expressed that kind of feeling with daeshim (or lennon), before. and daeshim is being really considerate and... well, daeshim. and baein can't help but love this part of him too, enough that his eyes burn a little again.
so he just ducks his head and resolutely swallow the tears down before they can form because he's kind of tired of crying. maybe he should... just voice his thoughts instead of keeping them at bay. daeshim did say he could tell baein kept doing that. it takes him another moment before he opens his mouth to continue. ]
But I... I do kind of want that.
[ it's hesitant when he says it because lennon is right there, and baein has no idea what he'd think about it, if he'd be upset or not—- ]
[daeshim still looks unsure. that's another one of those phrases that he really doesn't understand - you don't have to. he doesn't and he knows that. no one could or would force him to do anything that he doesn't want to do. everything is offered with an open heart.
but when baein voices his honest thoughts, he blooms like one of his flowers. he even smiles.]
I would like it too! Very much!
[he smiles back at lennon as well. daeshim doesn't think of this as being just for him. he knows that closeness will come between the two of them as well, has already seen the signs. he's just there to help, and happy to be the bridge between them.]
[ it isn't just for daeshim, but baein still doesn't know what he'd have with lennon... or if lennon would even want something like that with baein at all. for now, his heart is tight in his chest (which is a feat, it's still a dry husk), and he stutters a little on air as he looks up just in time to see daeshim's smile with his words.
it's beautiful and baein can only stare for a second, lips parted. ]
All right.
[ it's breathed rather than spoken, and baein chances a wobbly smile at the face before he turns to glance at lennon too. ]
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only to tumble, not unlike a ragdoll, when daeshim tugs at him, and the prince manages a yelp before he comes face to face, almost nose to nose with lennon. blinking back a few tears as he tries to focus on the features on the other side of the blur, baein goes a pale pink, eyes a little wide when he finds himself frozen.
daeshim unfreezes him though, and baein can only stutter his reply, even if he doesn't look away from lennon. his voice is a little strangled with emotion and he swallows again. ]
N-no... no... I don't.
[ daeshim is warm against him where he's smooshed against him, and he can feel the way lennon's body gives off heat too. and the vampire can't help the way he just sags a little. ]
Do you want me to...? After I... after I said those things.
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He swallows a little as he looks back up at Baein's eyes, takes in his answer to Daeshim, his question. He decides to answer for Daeshim.
The small distance between them is closed as Lennon crushes their lips together maybe a little too hard at first and he reigns it in to kiss Baein softly, the way he deserves. But almost as soon as he'd done it the worry that Baein doesn't want him to kiss him takes hold and he pulls back, swallowing.
He bites his tongue to keep from saying sorry -- at least until... he sees the other's reaction. ]
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Does swimming still seem like a good date idea?
[he loops his arms around bae's waist. it's something they can do at night. they don't have to worry about something being open or closed. it doesn't cost anything. (which is good, because he still hasn't told lennon that he spent all of his allowance on popcorn.) oh, and they don't have to wear clothes for it either.
wait-]
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when lennon pulls back, baein unconsciously follows to kiss him again, though he breaks it a second time when he realizes what he's doing, eyes darting over lennon's face for any sign of not wanting to.
daeshim's voice is what startles him back to reality and at first the vampire doesn't register the meaning of the words. ]
Swimming...?
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He really...wants to kiss him again but there's other things to attend to. He swallows and leans his head on Daeshim as he watches Baein. ]
Mm...would you like to?
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I'm not a very good swimmer... but... yes.
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We'll make sure you get fed beforehand too.
[ Because he thinks... it would be nicer with Baein having some warmth for himself. His hand caresses a little, thumb brushing over Baein's bottom lip and he swallows before dropping his hand, the tips of his ears a tell-tale pink. ]
And we're good swimmers.
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[swimming does come naturally to him. can he even drown? perhaps if a mer dragged him to the bottom...
the fae blinks suddenly, looks back at lennon, following the line of his arm to where his fingers stroke bae's cheek. his lips curve down at the corners.]
Notice me too.
[it's not to one or the other, it's to both.]
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Notice you? Daeshim... how could I not?
[ baein shifts a little so he can reach more for daeshim's hand instead, swallowing quietly. this entire situation is so strange to him, but lennon kissed him, and daeshim pulled him in and— ]
Can I kiss you?
[ the vampire hitches his non!breath after he's blurted that, but he gives daeshim a little smile and reaches up with his free hand to rub the almost dried tears from his cheeks. ]
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As the other asks to kiss Daeshim, Lennon lowers his head to press a soft kiss to Daeshim's neck, right over the flower there, letting his tongue flick out against it as he nuzzles him after.
He knows that Daeshim will want to kiss Baein but he'll make sure Daeshim knows that Lennon notices him too. ]
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he's childish. but also like a child, he's easily soothed most of the time. lennon's nuzzle gets him halfway there, making him tilt his head to expose a little more of that spot. and baein's question takes care of the rest.]
Yes. You don't have to ask ever again. You can kiss me whenever you want.
[that's also a little scary, the thought that he might look for one every day and never receive it. but it's not up to just him. dae'll be sure to initiate his share as well.]
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It just... I just wanted to make sure.
[ it's quiet, subdued, but daeshim's words are like a promise, and baein glances at lennon, afraid to see if there'll be any kind of objection from his side. but if daeshim wants it, then... baein leans in to give the fae a gentle kiss. it's not the first time he's kissed him, obviously, but it feels a little different like this, as if it is the first time. ]
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[until the day comes that the contract is broken, a day that daeshim can't imagine. the fae waits, a little more patient now, eyes closing right before bae's lips touch his. he remembers the flowers that bloomed on his birthday - they bloom again now in a perfect outline around the three of them. it's soft and gentle, and then-
lennon should maybe warn the new boyfriends that daeshim can be a bit...unpredictable at times. because maybe then bae would be prepared for the way that daeshim all but crawls into his lap for a more eager kiss.]
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[ it's all baein gets out before the kiss steals the rest of any spoken word he might utter. and baein sighs into the kiss, though he muffles a confused noise into it the moment he suddenly has a lapful of fae climbing on him, and it's all baein can do to adjust to the new position. honestly, he should be surprised, but he settles pretty fast and and hesitantly cups the fae's cheeks with his hands as he kisses him back.
the vampire is going to tip over if daeshim pushes any further, if there's nothing to keep baein upright after all. ]
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his face underneath bae's fingertips grows even warmer. he scoots back again once the kiss breaks, though there's never much distance between them when dae takes his hands and draws him back, resuming his place as the cream in this cookie.]
The next time we go shopping for slutty clothes, you should pick out something you want to see me in.
[do the others know that that was a thing that actually happened? no, they probably don't.]
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He relaxes as Daeshim settles back again, raising a brow at the other's comment to Baein. ]
The next time you what?
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That's— I thought...
[ his cat ears lays back against his skull without his consent as the prince pulls back slightly, fiddling with his fingers. ]
I can do that. But—
[ he thought it was kind of their little secret thing. or something. maybe he just assumed that daeshim didn't want to tell anyone (of course he did, he never asked, after all), and technically he'd feel bad for keeping secrets like that anyway, it wouldn't be right. (he has no right) and now it feels suddenly more charged. ]
I didn't think you wanted to tell anyone yet.
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and then he says those words, and the fae's eyes and mouth both go round.]
Oh!
[that's right, it was supposed to be a secret. a surprise. deashim looks back at lennon.]
You did not hear that! You've forgotten it already!
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Yeah, of course.
[ He has not but he'll play along. ]
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[ baein forces a small smile, unsure about his own emotions in the middle of all this, because it feels so sudden. he's still trying to speak around a lump in his throat, the thought of his home still dancing along the edges of his mind like a taunting specter, jumbling around his emotions already, and he still feels a little raw and exposed. it's not a spectacular feeling, but then again, baein hasn't felt spectacular in a while now. ]
It's all right. I did not say it was a secret. I... I should have asked, if it was.
[ maybe he wanted something that was only his with daeshim, but the prince tries to remind himself that it would be greedy to want that here. watching lennon curled around daeshim like that, finally smiling on a laugh, it at least helps assuage baein's guilt a little bit. ]
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[he didn't think, he just assumed that baein wouldn't want something like that with him - something that was just theirs. a part of him also feels like he has no right to it, because there is a jasper and a daeshim for him, wolfy knotty creature that he is. he knows that baein must miss them, and that he would probably return to them if he could.
but he's here instead, and he's very loved. and daeshim's greed is making it impossible for him to keep it from him. he will find something that's just theirs too, create it if he has to. it would be good for all of them to have that.]
We shall make some!
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[ baein bites back a petty emotion (why do hey even need a secret for? it's not like baein needs one. he's always been open and perfectly fine with that, and this shouldn't be any different? just because it's daeshim. right? ...right?) before he can voice it, immediately inhales on it and feels bad because he hasn't expressed that kind of feeling with daeshim (or lennon), before. and daeshim is being really considerate and... well, daeshim. and baein can't help but love this part of him too, enough that his eyes burn a little again.
so he just ducks his head and resolutely swallow the tears down before they can form because he's kind of tired of crying. maybe he should... just voice his thoughts instead of keeping them at bay. daeshim did say he could tell baein kept doing that. it takes him another moment before he opens his mouth to continue. ]
But I... I do kind of want that.
[ it's hesitant when he says it because lennon is right there, and baein has no idea what he'd think about it, if he'd be upset or not—- ]
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but when baein voices his honest thoughts, he blooms like one of his flowers. he even smiles.]
I would like it too! Very much!
[he smiles back at lennon as well. daeshim doesn't think of this as being just for him. he knows that closeness will come between the two of them as well, has already seen the signs. he's just there to help, and happy to be the bridge between them.]
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it's beautiful and baein can only stare for a second, lips parted. ]
All right.
[ it's breathed rather than spoken, and baein chances a wobbly smile at the face before he turns to glance at lennon too. ]
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