[daeshim still looks unsure. that's another one of those phrases that he really doesn't understand - you don't have to. he doesn't and he knows that. no one could or would force him to do anything that he doesn't want to do. everything is offered with an open heart.
but when baein voices his honest thoughts, he blooms like one of his flowers. he even smiles.]
I would like it too! Very much!
[he smiles back at lennon as well. daeshim doesn't think of this as being just for him. he knows that closeness will come between the two of them as well, has already seen the signs. he's just there to help, and happy to be the bridge between them.]
[ it isn't just for daeshim, but baein still doesn't know what he'd have with lennon... or if lennon would even want something like that with baein at all. for now, his heart is tight in his chest (which is a feat, it's still a dry husk), and he stutters a little on air as he looks up just in time to see daeshim's smile with his words.
it's beautiful and baein can only stare for a second, lips parted. ]
All right.
[ it's breathed rather than spoken, and baein chances a wobbly smile at the face before he turns to glance at lennon too. ]
[ Lennon looks confused when the other sits up like that and declares it hot chocolate time because... one, there isn't a specified time for that and two Lennon hasn't asked for any... But his brow just raises at the comment to Baein and he thinks he might be seeing what Daeshim is doing.
He bites back a snort and glances at Baein. He feels a little hesitant, because Baein probably prefers Daeshim between them... He shakes it off and shifts to close the distance between them as Daeshim gets up. ]
[ baein feels a little out of place. dae and lennon are all snuggled up and the vampire is only holding daeshim's hand, but he's burning to ask for more but finding the words hard to utter.
he opens his mouth to speak but then dae jumps up and baein almost startles and blinks at him in confusion, looking between the fae and lennon. take his spot...? ]
Ah...? Should I...?
[ but lennon is already settling in closer to him and daeshim is already leaving and baein can't help how he tilts against lennon in turn. the heat from the other is palpable and the prince tries to hold back the slight shiver down his spine once he focuses on how cold he is.
that, and... well. he'd be lying if he said he didn't want this kind of thing with lennon too, even if it's more hesitant, more careful. ]
[ Once Daeshim had made sure they were comfortable and Lennon has his attention on Baein he had noticed the shiver. He frowns a little and swallows as he wraps an arm around the other. He can never tell exactly where he stands with Baein. ]
Are you hungry?
[ Lennon asks softly, wondering if that's why Daeshim went to get hot chocolate. He always had hot chocolate after feeding Baein.
His brushes one hand over one of Baein's and slowly interlocks their fingers, a part of him holding his breath and waiting for rejection there. ]
[ when lennon wraps his arm around him, baein relents and sags against him, soaking up the heat of the human. the question feels like a regular thing at this point, so baein only hesitates for a second before he replies. ]
...just a little.
[ he feels ashamed to admit it because somehow everyone always manage to ask when he is, and not when he can deal. that, or he just is incapable of lying to them, because he feels guilty if he does. when lennon takes his hand, baein lets out a quiet noise of affirmation and curls his fingers with his in turn. ]
It's... mm, almost always, if I haven't, in a few days.
[ he doesn't like that part, that he's always hungry in some way, though he wonders if some of it is because of the cold and the longing for any kind of touch. from whoever matters, that is. ]
[ It's a relief when Baein doesn't pull away. He swallows a little and squeezes Baein's fingers as he keeps holding him close. ]
I know I probably made it awkward and weird for you the last time but... I'm sorry I know you probably didn't want me doing all that. But... you should drink. I'll behave.
[ Lennon says quietly, his ears burning but at least it's hidden by his hair. His tail is actually not taped under his clothes since he'd been in his and Daeshim's room and it flicks behind him. ]
And Daeshim will be back soon so, it'll be okay if you drink some now.
Mm... it's all right. Everything was... odd. For me too.
[ he looks up at the way lennon's voice sounds, at how baein can feel the slight flush to his skin because he's just attuned to that even if it's hidden. for once, he blinks as he sees the appendage behind lennon, and he's reminded that lennon also has a tail. not a cat tail, like his own, but still. it's... it's kind of solidarity because baein's own tail is doing whatever the fuck it wants, which currently seems to be curling up against his own and lennon's backs. ]
[ Lennon's not totally sure he buys that it's alright but he will do his best to accept what Baein's said and not belabor the point too much. He swallows as he feels the other's tail and it's a sort of ticklish feeling. He shifts just a little closer and tucks his hair behind his ear. ]
[ baein can't help his glance to lennon's neck, as most of the times he's fed, which technically hasn't been very many yet. this time it's so different, charged in a way because of what they've all just talked about or... decided? baein doesn't want to assume too much, but something inside him has unraveled a little more because of it.
his eyes flicker up to lennon's as the human reassures him with a smile, and baein's shoulders relaxes more before he leans in to sink his fangs into the base of his neck. ]
[ Lennon can remember how it felt when the other fed from his neck, it'd felt a lot different from his wrist, their bodies had been pressed close and... he mentally tries to shake off the memory. He's not trying to get another boner and make things awkward for Baein again. He half thinks he's going to say no but then ... Baein's close and he feels the pain of those sharp fangs that blossoms into pleasure, that weird towing the line between that Lennon's so fond of in general -- but it's also different with feeding Baein.
He makes a soft noise, something like a moan but he's trying to hold back. His hand lifts to curl into the other's hair, eyes closed as he focuses on it. ]
[ baein is definitely echoing that soft noise, almost a keen as he tilts his head into lennon's hand, chasing the touch. he's feeding slowly rather than hurriedly, seemingly less hesitant about it now when he's actually drinking, and his fingers clench and unclench on lennon's shoulders, not quite holding him there, but still holding him.
time almost slows down for him like this, but at least he keeps himself aware of how lennon feels, if he seems weaker or anything like it the longer time passes. ]
[ Lennon doesn't feel the limit where he's not comfortable anymore coming up so fast. He has more time to relish the other's bite, the way it feels to be drank from and how Baein's fingers grasp his shoulder. He presses his fingertips against the other's scalp as his other hand comes up cupping the side of Baein's neck his thumb brushing over his adam's apple and resting just above it.
He doesn't want the other to stop and he's glad it's lasted longer this time even if he's more than half hard and the scooting closer without a thinking about it, trying not to jostle Baein too much in the process. His breath is uneven and despite blood loss his cheeks are pink. ]
Kiss me...
[ Lennon tugs gently at Baein's hair and he's ready to be ignored in favor of his blood or for Baein to stop drinking and just pull away from him in rejection of the soft, breathy request. ]
[ the vampire feels a little dazed as lennon tugs at him, but he goes easily, relief flooding his system everytime he realizes he's still lucid, still able to stop in a reasonable amount of time after being asked.
still... himself.
lennon's fingers trace gentle heat over his skin, and he swallows along with the thumb over his throat, letting out a small noise as he's tugged back to look at the other, eyes a dark glowing red.
the question takes him off guard, and a voice at the back of his mind wants to protest if only because his mouth tastes like blood and he won't be very pleasant to kiss. but it takes a backseat when he sees and hears lennon's please and baein just leans in, tilting closer, mumbling through the soft blanket like state of his mind, eyes half lidded. ]
[ Lennon says quietly and he really doesn’t mind that the other
would taste like blood, it’s just the remnant of him being able to give
Baein something he needs. His thumb hadnt moved from where he’d left it on
the others throat and his lips are parted, breath uneven. his gaze lowers
to the others lips and then return to his eyes. ]
Kiss me.
[ He wants Baein to be the one to close the distance, so he really…
really knows that Baein is choosing it if he does. ]
[ baein only hesitates for a moment, more out of the knowledge that it might not feel pleasant. but when lennon asks again, looking at him like that, the vampire closes the distance without thinking, pressing his lips against lennon's.
it's soft, chaste as a start, and he leans into lennon's hand, feeling the faint pressure against his throat in an almost grounding way. ]
[it might be...a little startling, the way daeshim's invoice cuts into the moment. he tries not to be too invasive though, waiting patiently beside the bed with the cup in his hand, sweet steam still rising from the surface.
he's smiling, glancing at each of them with more than a little mischief before finally trying to crawl onto the bed with them again.]
[ Lennon's heart races when their lips press together and it's different than the other stolen kiss and all... it's Baein choosing to kiss him and not rejecting him and Lennon makes a quiet noise against the other's mouth. His fingers curl a little tighter in his hair, thumb brushing over his throat once more.
He'd already been a little worked up by the feeding and he has to remind himself or try to that he shouldn't just push Baein onto his back or one of them into the other's lap...
And before he lost his tenuous grip on not following his instincts he hears Daeshim's voice.
There's a quiet noise from Lennon but he pulls back slowly and he does taste the blood still but he doesn't mind it at all. He glances at Daeshim a little sheepishly and he does feel lightheaded and the usual fatigue from being fed from but it's not as bad or maybe the adrenaline from the kiss has canceled it out. ]
Thank you, Dae...
[ He holds out his hand for his hot chocolate and his tail might be flicking back and forth a bit too happily but he's ignoring it thank you very much. ]
[ baein can't help the quiet noise that slips out when lennon's fingers curl in his hair, and he tilts his head a little without thinking to chase the feeling, shudders with the knowledge that he likes it, likes the tug and the way lennon's fingers ghost over his skin.
it's a little different, gentle but still feels more than he thought he would. the heat of the blood he just drank spreads through his limbs, and baein shifts a little closer, almost considering if lennon would let him sit in his lap—
the scent of chocolate and forest invades his senses before daeshim even speaks up, and then lennon breaks the spell by pulling away as the fae's voice reaches them, and baein blinks slowly at the human, the bright red of his eyes slowly fading into a darker shade. he feels a little dazed from drinking until it settles in his body, and the prince turns to watch lennon accept the chocolate from the fae, his own hands slowly sliding away from where he held lennon and back into his lap. ]
[is he going to just...crawl himself right between them? of course he is, with exactly half of his body across each of their laps. dae folds his arms, resting his chin on top of them, little deer tail twitching.]
Mm. You're poking me.
[daeshim giggles, slithering immediately away and moving to hug lennon from behind then. he peeks around him, one mischievous eye fixed on bae.]
Do you want me to show you how he likes to be touched?
[ Lennon has to bite back a noise when Daeshim moves over his lap and he quickly takes a drink of his hot chocolate and trying to act like absolutely nothing just happened and he's not horny.
But then Daeshim completely blows his cover figuratively and literally. He starts to think of an excuse when he's first accused of poking Daeshim but the fae had already moved and pressed behind him. It left him feeling more exposed, the shorts he wears to bed not hiding anything and now Daeshim's pulling attention toward it.
Lennon manages to set the hot chocolate down safely, swallowing heavily and he can't bring himself to look at Baein, because he's sure this... isn't something Baein would like. He still remembers what he'd done to him before and then he remembered apologizing about it and... he hadn't gotten the feeling that it was something...
His mind is reeling and the fear of rejection is right in the forefront again when it'd been soothed by the kisses they'd shared. He shakes his head and while he still doesn't look up he says: ]
I don't think... Baein wants me like that... [ It's to Daeshim. ] Baein...don't worry about it, okay?
[ But he really...wants Baein to want to be shown...to want to touch him. ]
[ baein isn't sure what he means at first, still feeling dazed, but the fae moves around so much until he finally retreats to sit behind lennon again and it kind of makes baein's chest seize a little with the loss of touch because... because he's on one side, and both of them are on the other and— and his spiraling thoughts are interrupted when he realizes what's going on. the vampire's eyes widen as he can't help but look down before hastily meeting lennon's eyes again, then daeshim, and then back to lennon. this was because of him. like the other time. and again baein has a hard time believing it but evidence is right there, and baein's cheeks flush. ]
I—
[ he doesn't manage to get words out before lennon jumps the gun and speaks for him, and for a moment, baein can just feel his entire body sag with resignation before he remembers why he's there. they still... want him there, right? ]
T-that's not true—! [ baein looks down and curls his hands into the fabric of his pants. he's still jumbled, feeling a little high on the blood he just drank, slow when his thoughts won't quite form quickly enough. ] Please... stop deciding for me.
[ it's more of a croak. he's not going to somehow mess this up again, but he still feel removed in a way, too far away even if he's sitting almost right in front of them. he hates feeling as if he's an afterthought, which is something brought on by his own mind entirely because no one has ever told him this. but... but he wants too, he's just not sure how to ask for it without feeling guilty. ]
[he watched. daeshim blinks at lennon's words, tilting his head to look up at him. maybe it makes more sense to him, because he senses that bae is more like him - kissing is intimacy, and intimacy isn't shared with someone just because you find them attractive or because they're there. it means something.
he's pleased when bae starts to speak. it doesn't even matter what he says, as long as he's speaking up for himself. but the words do make him happier. more than that, they make him happier. dae only wishes they both loved themselves as much as he loves them both.
they'll get there.]
We can take it slow!
[the fae nods at baein, reaching around lennon's body to uncurl his fingers from his clothing and squeeze his hand. and then he starts guiding it towards the human's midsection.]
[ Lennon isn't sure what to say at first as the two of them respond and he's... shocked a little by Baein's statement but it gives him a moment of clarity of what he's been doing. He has his reasons but... Baein has a point...and Baein wants him? Like this? He wants to apologize...but... it doesn't seem like the right moment -- so he will later.
He's not really shy about sex. Sex is where he's comfortable but there's something about this with Daeshim and Baein, with Daeshim behind him and Baein in front, being invited onto his lap by Daeshim. He looks up at Baein as the other is encouraged to come closer by Daeshim.
The other had said he wants to... but a part of him is still holding his breath. There's something very intimate about this, beyond sexually, the way Daeshim is guiding Baein to touch him. And he wants Baein to touch him. He leans heavily on Daeshim both because he is a bit weak after the feeding and not finishing the chocolate milk but Daeshim makes him feel more secure. ]
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but when baein voices his honest thoughts, he blooms like one of his flowers. he even smiles.]
I would like it too! Very much!
[he smiles back at lennon as well. daeshim doesn't think of this as being just for him. he knows that closeness will come between the two of them as well, has already seen the signs. he's just there to help, and happy to be the bridge between them.]
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it's beautiful and baein can only stare for a second, lips parted. ]
All right.
[ it's breathed rather than spoken, and baein chances a wobbly smile at the face before he turns to glance at lennon too. ]
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hmm. this is very delicate, and he's not always good at such things. but.]
Oh! [he sits up straight and sudden.] It's almost time for hot chocolate!
[is there a "time" for it? doesn't he just make it whenever lennon asks for it? moving on.]
Bae, would you mind keeping my spot warm for me?
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He bites back a snort and glances at Baein. He feels a little hesitant, because Baein probably prefers Daeshim between them... He shakes it off and shifts to close the distance between them as Daeshim gets up. ]
Don't forget the peppermint.
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he opens his mouth to speak but then dae jumps up and baein almost startles and blinks at him in confusion, looking between the fae and lennon. take his spot...? ]
Ah...? Should I...?
[ but lennon is already settling in closer to him and daeshim is already leaving and baein can't help how he tilts against lennon in turn. the heat from the other is palpable and the prince tries to hold back the slight shiver down his spine once he focuses on how cold he is.
that, and... well. he'd be lying if he said he didn't want this kind of thing with lennon too, even if it's more hesitant, more careful. ]
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Are you hungry?
[ Lennon asks softly, wondering if that's why Daeshim went to get hot chocolate. He always had hot chocolate after feeding Baein.
His brushes one hand over one of Baein's and slowly interlocks their fingers, a part of him holding his breath and waiting for rejection there. ]
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...just a little.
[ he feels ashamed to admit it because somehow everyone always manage to ask when he is, and not when he can deal. that, or he just is incapable of lying to them, because he feels guilty if he does. when lennon takes his hand, baein lets out a quiet noise of affirmation and curls his fingers with his in turn. ]
It's... mm, almost always, if I haven't, in a few days.
[ he doesn't like that part, that he's always hungry in some way, though he wonders if some of it is because of the cold and the longing for any kind of touch. from whoever matters, that is. ]
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I know I probably made it awkward and weird for you the last time but... I'm sorry I know you probably didn't want me doing all that. But... you should drink. I'll behave.
[ Lennon says quietly, his ears burning but at least it's hidden by his hair. His tail is actually not taped under his clothes since he'd been in his and Daeshim's room and it flicks behind him. ]
And Daeshim will be back soon so, it'll be okay if you drink some now.
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[ he looks up at the way lennon's voice sounds, at how baein can feel the slight flush to his skin because he's just attuned to that even if it's hidden. for once, he blinks as he sees the appendage behind lennon, and he's reminded that lennon also has a tail. not a cat tail, like his own, but still. it's... it's kind of solidarity because baein's own tail is doing whatever the fuck it wants, which currently seems to be curling up against his own and lennon's backs. ]
... are you sure?
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Yeah. I'm sure.
[ He smiles, tilting his head. ]
It'll be okay.
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his eyes flicker up to lennon's as the human reassures him with a smile, and baein's shoulders relaxes more before he leans in to sink his fangs into the base of his neck. ]
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He makes a soft noise, something like a moan but he's trying to hold back. His hand lifts to curl into the other's hair, eyes closed as he focuses on it. ]
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time almost slows down for him like this, but at least he keeps himself aware of how lennon feels, if he seems weaker or anything like it the longer time passes. ]
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He doesn't want the other to stop and he's glad it's lasted longer this time even if he's more than half hard and the scooting closer without a thinking about it, trying not to jostle Baein too much in the process. His breath is uneven and despite blood loss his cheeks are pink. ]
Kiss me...
[ Lennon tugs gently at Baein's hair and he's ready to be ignored in favor of his blood or for Baein to stop drinking and just pull away from him in rejection of the soft, breathy request. ]
Please.
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still... himself.
lennon's fingers trace gentle heat over his skin, and he swallows along with the thumb over his throat, letting out a small noise as he's tugged back to look at the other, eyes a dark glowing red.
the question takes him off guard, and a voice at the back of his mind wants to protest if only because his mouth tastes like blood and he won't be very pleasant to kiss. but it takes a backseat when he sees and hears lennon's please and baein just leans in, tilting closer, mumbling through the soft blanket like state of his mind, eyes half lidded. ]
I taste like blood...
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That’s okay. It’s mine.
[ Lennon says quietly and he really doesn’t mind that the other would taste like blood, it’s just the remnant of him being able to give Baein something he needs. His thumb hadnt moved from where he’d left it on the others throat and his lips are parted, breath uneven. his gaze lowers to the others lips and then return to his eyes. ]
Kiss me.
[ He wants Baein to be the one to close the distance, so he really… really knows that Baein is choosing it if he does. ]
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it's soft, chaste as a start, and he leans into lennon's hand, feeling the faint pressure against his throat in an almost grounding way. ]
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[it might be...a little startling, the way daeshim's invoice cuts into the moment. he tries not to be too invasive though, waiting patiently beside the bed with the cup in his hand, sweet steam still rising from the surface.
he's smiling, glancing at each of them with more than a little mischief before finally trying to crawl onto the bed with them again.]
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He'd already been a little worked up by the feeding and he has to remind himself or try to that he shouldn't just push Baein onto his back or one of them into the other's lap...
And before he lost his tenuous grip on not following his instincts he hears Daeshim's voice.
There's a quiet noise from Lennon but he pulls back slowly and he does taste the blood still but he doesn't mind it at all. He glances at Daeshim a little sheepishly and he does feel lightheaded and the usual fatigue from being fed from but it's not as bad or maybe the adrenaline from the kiss has canceled it out. ]
Thank you, Dae...
[ He holds out his hand for his hot chocolate and his tail might be flicking back and forth a bit too happily but he's ignoring it thank you very much. ]
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it's a little different, gentle but still feels more than he thought he would. the heat of the blood he just drank spreads through his limbs, and baein shifts a little closer, almost considering if lennon would let him sit in his lap—
the scent of chocolate and forest invades his senses before daeshim even speaks up, and then lennon breaks the spell by pulling away as the fae's voice reaches them, and baein blinks slowly at the human, the bright red of his eyes slowly fading into a darker shade. he feels a little dazed from drinking until it settles in his body, and the prince turns to watch lennon accept the chocolate from the fae, his own hands slowly sliding away from where he held lennon and back into his lap. ]
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Mm. You're poking me.
[daeshim giggles, slithering immediately away and moving to hug lennon from behind then. he peeks around him, one mischievous eye fixed on bae.]
Do you want me to show you how he likes to be touched?
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But then Daeshim completely blows his cover figuratively and literally. He starts to think of an excuse when he's first accused of poking Daeshim but the fae had already moved and pressed behind him. It left him feeling more exposed, the shorts he wears to bed not hiding anything and now Daeshim's pulling attention toward it.
Lennon manages to set the hot chocolate down safely, swallowing heavily and he can't bring himself to look at Baein, because he's sure this... isn't something Baein would like. He still remembers what he'd done to him before and then he remembered apologizing about it and... he hadn't gotten the feeling that it was something...
His mind is reeling and the fear of rejection is right in the forefront again when it'd been soothed by the kisses they'd shared. He shakes his head and while he still doesn't look up he says: ]
I don't think... Baein wants me like that... [ It's to Daeshim. ] Baein...don't worry about it, okay?
[ But he really...wants Baein to want to be shown...to want to touch him. ]
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[ baein isn't sure what he means at first, still feeling dazed, but the fae moves around so much until he finally retreats to sit behind lennon again and it kind of makes baein's chest seize a little with the loss of touch because... because he's on one side, and both of them are on the other and— and his spiraling thoughts are interrupted when he realizes what's going on. the vampire's eyes widen as he can't help but look down before hastily meeting lennon's eyes again, then daeshim, and then back to lennon. this was because of him. like the other time. and again baein has a hard time believing it but evidence is right there, and baein's cheeks flush. ]
I—
[ he doesn't manage to get words out before lennon jumps the gun and speaks for him, and for a moment, baein can just feel his entire body sag with resignation before he remembers why he's there. they still... want him there, right? ]
T-that's not true—! [ baein looks down and curls his hands into the fabric of his pants. he's still jumbled, feeling a little high on the blood he just drank, slow when his thoughts won't quite form quickly enough. ] Please... stop deciding for me.
[ it's more of a croak. he's not going to somehow mess this up again, but he still feel removed in a way, too far away even if he's sitting almost right in front of them. he hates feeling as if he's an afterthought, which is something brought on by his own mind entirely because no one has ever told him this. but... but he wants too, he's just not sure how to ask for it without feeling guilty. ]
I want to...
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[he watched. daeshim blinks at lennon's words, tilting his head to look up at him. maybe it makes more sense to him, because he senses that bae is more like him - kissing is intimacy, and intimacy isn't shared with someone just because you find them attractive or because they're there. it means something.
he's pleased when bae starts to speak. it doesn't even matter what he says, as long as he's speaking up for himself. but the words do make him happier. more than that, they make him happier. dae only wishes they both loved themselves as much as he loves them both.
they'll get there.]
We can take it slow!
[the fae nods at baein, reaching around lennon's body to uncurl his fingers from his clothing and squeeze his hand. and then he starts guiding it towards the human's midsection.]
Come closer. You can slide onto his lap.
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He's not really shy about sex. Sex is where he's comfortable but there's something about this with Daeshim and Baein, with Daeshim behind him and Baein in front, being invited onto his lap by Daeshim. He looks up at Baein as the other is encouraged to come closer by Daeshim.
The other had said he wants to... but a part of him is still holding his breath. There's something very intimate about this, beyond sexually, the way Daeshim is guiding Baein to touch him. And he wants Baein to touch him. He leans heavily on Daeshim both because he is a bit weak after the feeding and not finishing the chocolate milk but Daeshim makes him feel more secure. ]
Bean...
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